I’m fat.

Guysssssss, I’m SO fat.

Really, I’m not. I weigh 65kgs (I may have rounded that down a little) but well, I’m average.
I’m not tiny, but I’m pretty healthy and every now and again I get whistled at by a front-toothless taxi driver, so I should be pleased.

I’m not fat, but I feel fat.

…And I don’t think its all my fault.

I remember watching Beverley Hills 90210 at primary school and Tori Spelling appeared in a beach scene. As she slow motionly jogged across the sand with her hair majestically whipping and the sun kissing her perfectly bronzed skinned a classmate spat out “wow she needs to tone up if she’s gonna run in that tiny costume”

Ok heaven knows why we were watching 90210 and more importantly why 12year old boys were shown half naked women while they should of been doing geometry. But I digress.

Tori Spelling people, Tori freaking Spelling needed to “tone up”.

If I ran on the beach would the jiggling of my NOT perfectly rounded butt make guys throw up in their mouths a little? Was I… gross? All I knew at 13 was that I was definitely no Tori Spelling, and if she needed to “tone up”? Then I needed a Unicorn and a Genie to procreate because it would take a Genie Unicorn to make me beautiful.

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Dear Mr Christian. My thoughts on your thoughts.

Most of you would have seen this video.

Joshua Feuerstein “destroys” the entire field of biology in a 3 minute clip.

Don’t get me wrong some of his points resonate with me but I’m just not entirely sure of the merits of someone taking a 3 minute long selfie.

Also, I’m quite sure he may be slightly missing the point.

Evangelism is about communicating the good news. Its about unification. I am yet to meet someone who has come to know Christ as a result of an intense online debate. Online debate sucks out the entire context of love. Everyone’s just wildly swinging clenched cyber-fists at everything…and nothing. It’s tiring.

I too am quick to shout(&type) out my beliefs but when they don’t match up with yours can I really abandon love for the sake of (my) truth? When I do I need to realise that it’s no longer about Jesus…its about winning an argument. It’s about pride.

In this context negativity is fertilized and at the end of it all everyone’s affected. The non believer is pushed further away from the faith and…. well, so is the believer.

Some people believe in God and some people don’t.

This all stopped being about Jesus it’s now just about who seems smarter.

Jenna Jay.

 

Who told you?

You guys, you’re filling my inbox.
Thank you for sharing your love, sharing your lives.

It gets to me though. The masses of hearts who are aching to know if they’re still worthy of love. There are so many people drowning in shame because they’re certain they’ll lose it all if anyone ever finds out how messed up they are. It makes me sad to know that there are so many people who willingly and mistakenly place their worth in the cruel hands of man.

How do I lay it out there for the world to see? Open to ridicule. How do I show my messyness? How dare I reveal the ratty edges? As if i’m here breaking some unwritten rule – “Above all, never stop pretending to be perfect”

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